There is no time or place. It just is. It sits in my mind always and everywhere. It is my dream.

I feel. Emotion boils through my veins. It motivates me and keeps me in touch with my world. I experience fully. Ice cream. Love. Joy. Pain. Chocolate. Life.

I am. Everyone knows me. They see me as truth. My world integrates perfectly with the rest of the world; it is one.

I believe. I have faith in all I am and work through that which I believe I am not. There is no hiding but there is also no unnecessary creating of issues that shouldn’t exist. There is only the best for me and I am what that is.

I travel. The journey is only worthwhile if travelled. I travel with others. In turn they travel with me like eternal companions, knowing and trusting that we have journeyed before. I enjoy the journey such that the destination does not matter. I stay with myself: leaving the past behind and letting the future take care of itself. I know what I want from the journey but allow the path to provide whatever opportunity it has. I bask in the sun. I bathe in the rain. I rejoice in the snow.

I know. My desires stem from deep within and flow through my mind. My mind brings them into this world and moulds them as we travel…together…my knowing, my thoughts and my journey. All synchronised by the power of union when nothing else matters but happiness.

I rejoice. Happiness is a state of mind; it is not brought about by others. It flows from deep within and, because it flows, it passes away. Happiness is manifested and passes away. I do not mourn its passing but celebrate its creation. There is only joy in my heart, despite the trials of the journey. There is beauty within. There is pain within. They coexist and stem from the same source – I allow and acknowledge all that I feel.

I manifest. As above, so below. My beauty and joy flows outwards into my environment, influencing all that I touch on my journey. Around me are objects of beauty and joy. I have so much that I can share.

There is no time or place. It just is. It sits in my mind always and everywhere. It is my dream.

As we stand on the threshold of 2011…

Be prepared for the future but don’t plan. Everything can change in the next second so what’s the point? Don’t set goals, you’ll only be disappointed. Instead, have purpose, even if it is merely to have fun and do only that which makes you happy.

If you always feel the need to do something, do nothing and if you generally do nothing, do something. The change will set in motion more than you can imagine.

When you ask someone for advice, remember that you will get their version. Make it your own before choosing to follow it.

Eat because you enjoy it but never eat anything in excess. Moderation and consistency with food and exercise are the greatest gifts you can give your body. Strive to be happy and healthy and not for the perfect look because the look of beauty and sports magazines is not healthy. (continue reading…)

Last night was not a good night. First my dry, sore throat woke me up (the consequence of blocked sinuses from a head cold), then oppressive heat wouldn’t allow me to sleep, followed by a persistent mosquito (why is there always just that one?), and then my two Jack Russells joined me on the bed because of thunder.

This ‘chaos’ brought on an interesting dream. In my house I have a wall covered in mirrors of various shapes and sizes. In wandering around my house I noticed that this wall was now blank…the mirrors all lay shattered on the floor. Immediately I was angry and searching for someone to blame but, as I walked around the house, I started to realise that it wasn’t actually mine…that it is all a dream and that I have the power to pull myself out of it.

This dream comes at a really significant time for me as I realise and deal with some shame that is being covered by an addiction in relating. (continue reading…)

“Just as the acorn existed within the oak, even when the oak was a seedling; and as the oak existed within the earth, even before there were trees; and as the earth existed within the galaxy, even before there were planets… there has never been a time when you did not exist within me… during which we dreamed all else into being.” – From Notes from the Universe

We cannot live in isolation and most of us would not choose to if we could. We are a part of this world no matter how hard some may try not to be. We are a part of everything that we experience and all that we experience is what we make it to be. We create our daily experiences, even though a lot of what we come in contact with exists with or without us; we create our experience when we make contact with it.

Relating is exactly like this. The beauty of perception can be seen in your encounters with others. Your experience is influenced by your past, your outlook on life in that instant, and your previous encounters with the person you are relating with. Put simply, we create the way we experience others, so one could deduce that we then experience ourselves in others. In psychology it is referred to as “the mirror” and Jodene and I like to see it as “you are always with your equal”, whether it is friends or a lover.

When you meet someone you sense a connection; there is something that either draws them to you or not. That all depends on what truth about yourself you are ready to see. As that changes so should the company you keep. Relationships are fluid like the world we live in. There may be pain when parting but suffering is a choice. Choose to let them go and wish them well on the path they are on.

I am not proud of the reasons why I choose to hold on to some of the people in my life. I can see that some of it is the result of fear. Well, to be honest, we all only hold on because of fear. I am afraid that I will not be able to re-create the experiences I had with those friends when those experiences were my creation…so surely I can create even bigger and better ones with anyone I choose? Others are afraid that their relationship has lasted so many years and should not be thrown away, when time does not make a friendship. Some people you meet you immediately feel you’ve known forever, while others you may never truly feel you know, despite how long you have had contact.

I speak a lot of ending relationships when there are other options to choose from. All that is really necessary is for you to change your perception of the other person in order to change your relationship with them. Either this will put you back into integrity with yourself (telling yourself the truth about what you see about yourself in the relationship), or you will naturally and easily drift apart.

Should you choose to continue in a relationship despite the changes in yourself that have rendered your partner incompatible, frustration will set in. You will become more and more irritated by your partner and everything they do or do not do. Have you noticed how in a relationship you put up with a lot of things that, once you have decided to leave, become an issue? You look back and wonder how you managed? You now see no reason to put up with those things anymore. However, my point is that this frustration with your partner is more about you. It shows how much you are out of integrity with yourself. As you establish your value for yourself you may discover that your partner does not give to you what you want. This is frustrating for you and the temptation is to blame them or to try changing them to fit this description. Jealousy then results as you perceive them giving to others what you feel you should be getting.

I choose to still have certain friends around, despite my frustration, because I see a beautiful connection. That connection is merely my choosing to continue to learn from my experience with them. It is a beautiful bond but it is not the romantic bond of fairytales.

One thing is for certain; all our relationships are allowing us to experience ourselves. It’s all about you…always…as much as you are tempted to blame others.

“That’s a hell of a story” were his words to me as I finished relating my journey of sexual discovery to him. “Is it?” I thought.

Despite having sung together for weeks, we had never really connected and then we had another singer join us and that brought us together. Nicholas and I began to discover things about each other that one would have thought we should have known by now. Take for instance the fact that he lives up the road from me. The pianist has been giving him a lift when I have almost been driving past his house every time I’ve headed to rehearsal!

How often do we engage with people and yet know nothing about them? Nic and I went for beers after the last rehearsal, spontaneously – the way I like it. I began to realise how much we have in common and how, given the opportunity, we all have a story to tell. We all have “a hell of a story” to tell, in fact. (continue reading…)