The reward for bravery is not always instant…sometimes you have to sit in it for a while.

I’m trying things differently. I’m saying things that I want to say to others which I wouldn’t have said before. And the effect is not patently different yet. As a result my mind (my unconditionally loving ego) is trying, at every opportunity, to convince me that it is not worth it.

“You see”, I hear it say to me, “he responded badly. You should not have said that!”

And so the cage starts to form around me. An imaginary cage created from my concern, my worry, my angst. Every day that goes by feels like torture. My mind plays it all over to me, again and again.

How often have you heard people say that “the truth will set you free”? Do you really believe them? Do you understand what it means: the truth? The truth is what you keep from yourself, hidden in the shadows you don’t want to look at. Truth is what scares you. Truth is what sets you free. “Yes, yes, you’ve said that already”, I hear you say in unison. I have, but did you hear it?

You also have a cage around you…a cage of fear and lies.

I see my mind racing onto the next level, telling me what to do, what I should have done, what I should have said. It upsets me. Tears well up in my eyes. Why does this happen when all I want is peace? All I want is to be happy. And I am…happy. I think. Oops, there it goes again… analysing… criticising. It never stops. There is a lesson there: it never stops. So there is no benefit in trying to stop it. Sit and watch it. Watch the movie in your mind, realising you are a spectator. Then you will notice just how damaging it is to your truth. That is not its intention; it is an all-loving protective energy that just wants to keep you safe because it loves you so much. Allow it that. Give it that. But never allow it to be your master. The mind as master is a cage like no other that can drive you to the point of distraction.

I sit and I cry. “I should not have said it”, my mind tells me. Yet I know it was right. It is what I want.

No man is an island and so saying what you want and the resultant experience can be quite surprising because you are speaking to people when you say it; you are relating to people on their own journey, living in their own self-created cage, enjoying the safety of their lies and the refuge of their minds. They bring with them their own history and experiences, which their mind has created during its journey of protecting them. Yet their interpretation does not take away from your truth. However, if you are unable to cope with their reaction then you are trying to control the situation and then you are once again in the mind and not your truth. Your truth is so free that it has no expectations. It does not need the other person to say or do anything. It does not even need acknowledgement. It only needs to be voiced.

Be happy, be free, and always speak your truth to yourself and others. It is easier said than done. And the effect is not always instant. I am still waiting to see the effect of my words….

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